Last week was my 15th birthday, and naturally, I went to the DMV as soon as possible. I couldn't wait to get my learners permit. So much freedom! So much power! MWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAA!!!!...... (oops, did I actually say that out loud?) After a little bit behind the wheel, it finally sunk in: I had a huge responsibility. I had to get the people in the car from point A to point B without killing anyone. Easy, right? But once I started thinking about everything that could go wrong, I started freaking out.
Thankfully, I successfully kept my head on and made my way safely around town. But it got me thinking, why was I freaking out? Sure, things could go wrong, but why was I completely losing it? I don't have anxiety disorder or panic attacks, and I was pretty calm on the outside, but I was absolutely terrified on the inside. Why was I so anxious? I still don't know what was going on. But I do know that Philippians 4:6-7 says: "Do not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Even in the little things, we need to let Jesus take the wheel (hehehehe) and give Him control. When we are worried, we cannot fully focus on God. God should always be first, and make sure our fears do not get in the way. Instead, give our fears to Him.
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Ah, it feels so good to be in a show again! I haven't been onstage in over a year. In September, my theatre company will be performing Music Man. As rehearsals have begun, I thought I might make a list of what everyone who loves the stage can relate to. Enjoy!
I have always wanted to do something big for God. My family has been involved with a group of missionaries working the Amazon River. My parents have been on countless mission trips to Brazil, and this year, I was old enough to join them. Throughout my life, it had always sounded so exciting to go to a different country and proclaim His word, but when the time came for me to go, I was scared. I was comfortable with my life, and I didn't want to leave. The trip seemed daunting, and I wasn't sure what to expect. I had yearned my whole life for this moment, but when the time came, I shied away from it.
Thankfully, I decided to go, though I was still unsure. I look back and see that I was scared of the hard work God wanted me to do. But as soon as the work had begun, I was in love. The children were so joyful and beautiful. My new friends on the trip were hilarious, and so encouraging. The language was so beautiful, and as soon as I got home, I booted up my old Rosetta Stone Portuguese program. I was determined that the next time I went, I would be able to speak to the children fluently. God changed my heart in Brazil. I no longer fear sweat. I'm not scared of getting my hands dirty. Because if it's for Him, it's worth it. I was free on the river. I had experienced something I hadn't known before: True happiness. I wasn't truly happy back in America. I was just comfortable. But when I was with God, no matter how sticky, dirty, and muggy the conditions were, I was happy. Once you get out of your comfort zone for Him, everything falls into place. On that trip, I learned a very important lesson: God is the only way to be truly happy. |
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